Thursday, 22 November 2007
motivation.
I dont feel motivated to go to school anymore.Its too far, every morning i just practically have to drag myself to school.despite having my clique there.(sorry clique, when sometimes im just down and emo, and not doing anything at all)and thats why i fare so badly for the previous sem.(partly)The initial motive for going to TP in the first place have subsided.things aint the same anymore.my day aint moving towards better days too.Too many things failed me.Body, legs, results and even love.Disappointment just hit me over and over again.Like, where's the past me. for once i shine on court and everything else.im now a nobody, playing his fav sports like a noob.trying hard, yet unappreciated.Like fuck, really wanted to switch team, the team which ive played in for close to 4 yrs.but ultimately, i cant and i wont. . .so you know, this kinda feeling sucks.imma strive, and train, and get back to where i once were.i gave up my fav sport once for love, aint worthit at all.Cause as time passed by, and i stand here today, with nothing in hand, no achievement,not recognised.i just feel like a failure.so no, im not gonna be like this anymore.swear.and love, ive tried all i could to get you.Labels: disappointment.
