Tuesday, 1 January 2008
两年前。
i looked back at the evidences, the messages, that's reminding me that i was once in love with you.
so deeply, too deep.
and only now, i figured.
things that you said previously were just things that we didnt even thought of fulfiling.
me too.
after years had passed and wounds are healed,
those evidences, seems so . . . dumb i shall say.
i was dumb.
i believed them.
but love blinded us, so noone's to blame.
just that, theres something that i should have done, should have said,
so that we wouldnt be like this today.
we would be better, at least, close friends.
its hard to do so, i know.
but, its better to try, than to lose someone who's once so close,
suddenly.
why did i try so hard back then?
pinning down those fears and disappointed and fought hard to get a glimpse of hope.
a hope for you to come home.
why?
what we are today, were worst.
not even what you called, "friends forever"
seeing you smile, and leading a happy life.
im glad too.
not as the boy, but as a friend.
and i realised, my heart isnt depressed, isnt feeling uneasy anymore.
yet i wish you all the best, and lead your life happily, even if im not a part of it.
not anymore.
time for me to have to go away, for so long.
baby, live happy.
i would love to see you smile again, just like the 1st time when we met.
smile.
you guys doesnt have to know what im talking about (:happy new year peepohs.time to sleep, its "early"and ive spent tonight conducively, by letting go a heavy burden off my shoulders.
i hope i dont have to feel for you again.
在就要转身前突然又想起你。。相遇的那一天漾着你, 那个微笑, 还是很美丽。。可惜那个人常常要让人哭泣。。Labels: familiar?
