"i can see it in the way you do, like no one else would ever get through."

Thats why i love you so, love you much.
i cant show, i dont know how.
You know it very well, but each time you say you'll compromise but end up complaining over every single fucking minor thing.
and each time, it hurt more.
cos' i couldnt satisfy you, and each time prove me that im being a bad boyfriend for someone who always kept me in her heart.
Baby, you just have to think, just have to remember, for all the tears fallen in just mere 3 months.
i've never been this weak, this vulnerable before.
since young having a tough life, i didnt even tear when something happen to my family.
i've considered you as a part of my family, part of my life
thats why. . .
you're right, i've been single for a year and more, that merely means that i wanto be fair to my next girlfriend.
it doesnt mean that i'll be better off if you leave today.
burden of this rship gets heavier day by day, after each quarrels.
you can relieve, by shouldering with me, by trying to understand how i really feel,
think before you speak.
i know im lousy enough, i dont need you to remind me each time and each day.
im trying, trying to remember every single minor thing that you like.
all you have to do, is to stop complaing about everything, and remember the times ive tried and make things so happy, so different from the one you dislike.
different boyfriend, different personalities and doings.
at times i have things that i dislike too, did you even think of this at all?
love is about two person, not just one. . .

sigh, i would rather you and i have a few days to think carefully, think if there's anything we can both do and change, to make this love so much better, than to just give up like that.
after all we've gone through so much, in just 3 months.

becos this love is hard to come by, pretty much waited for 4 years.
i would say,
"it's all or nothing at all".
it's either a long long time together, rather than just few months, like puppy love.


it's hard at night, when surrounding is so quiet, you feel so lonely, thinking about each nights when you have someone there for you.

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